Monday, January 28, 2013

Learning to let go...

For me, I always have something on the go. Which used to be ok, but now {maybe cause I am getting old-ha!}My mind gets jumbled, and I'm not sure where to look first. It's like inside my brain I have all these tabs up {like in your Internet browser-where I constantly have 10 open!} and just as I close one down, I have another idea and open up another tab. Then just like my computer{ cause it's old too!} I overheat and freeze. So, long story short, I am due for a reboot :)

to make less tense or rigid
to become less intense or severe
to seek rest or recreation
to cast off social restraint, nervous tension, or anxiety

So, I settled on the word RELAX for 2013 in hopes that if I could come to terms with learning how to take time for myself mentally and physically, then I would be able to take on the projects I want too and feel more on top of the game. And of course, a little extra me time is OK too :)

I want to be in the mind set that if I can't get something done, then it wasn't supposed to happen. I don't want to feel like those 'failures' {or expectations} are holding me back and making me frustrated.

So I have to let go...

Let go of the comparisons that often come with being a mom and hearing other moms stories. Let go of the assumptions that come with blogging and the comparisons we place on ourselves in the blogging world too.
Let go of the voice that whispers and taunts me in my head that someone is better, or did something better then me. I need to learn how to ignore those voices!
I have to let go of the assumption that the world will stop moving if I don't do this or that. Obviously it never stopped prior, so why would it now?
I have to let go of that perfect image in my head. The perfect family. The perfect house. The perfect job. The perfect life....
I have to let go of the excuses and be accountable for my actions. Just stop eating the junk food!

I know that it won't be easy and there will be times when I feel like I haven't been giving it my all. I will feel that all too familiar feeling of guilt or pressure when I see someones beautiful home or perfect outfit. I will feel overwhelmed when days go by and I haven't wrote a single word or my inbox is full of emails. But I must let go of those ideals before I can fully work on my objective for the RELAX.

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Sarah said...

Boy are we on the same wavelength. I didn't start 2013 with a word, but BALANCE quickly became the goal. Part of finding balance, for me, is letting go of the bad habits that hold me back (baked Cheetos are still Cheetos, Sarah!) and my propensity to sweat the small stuff. I make lists I can never finish and heap expectations on my shoulders that are too hard to carry day after day. I haven't, even for a second, been able to relish the fact that this is my LAST semester. It's a huge accomplishment, yet all I can think about is the papers that need writing and how much higher I can possibly get my GPA. It's exhausting! Why do we do that to ourselves? As always, I love your insights. They usually come when I need them most, and never fail to speak to my soul.

Joyce said...

Always remember to use your smile to change the world but don't let the world change your beautiful smile! Always encourage yourself like only you can. You are unique so don't compare yourself to anyone or anything else. Look and around and take note--you have it all! AND RELAX!

Sona Zemkova said...

Learning to let go is like learning a new skill. But you cant be at peace otherwise. Had to let go of so many things last year, but it made me more free and I grew as a person.

Thank you so much for stoping at my blog for scavenger hunt sunday. Sonishka - Far and Away.

Ashley said...

I am in love with your analogy. You hit the nail on the head!